happy birthday erisher darling. =D gonna go celebrate her big day on sat night, hopefully nothing crops up. its been months since we last met. anyway, today is crap day because my classmates are insane, loll, went for some talks to get my nda points because i just realised all the points i got was ndp points and its freaking useless. luckily pok gai always reminded and motivated us to go for talks. its always nonsense and nonsense with them. actually attending the business one but was full house and couldnt accomodate the 8 of us so we went to the violence talk instead, kind of interesting as its about marital immunity and violence against women, and proud to say i didnt fell asleep, cos theres nuisance people beside me to remind me to wake up. ended up i kept pestering people to go get the white ribbons, as its a form of action to show that you would not be violent towards women and blah blah, and we all stick it on. was sad with the quality of the ribbon, should be in cloth form but its a stupid paper-like ribbons. aftermath, back to class and thankfully we finished our ppt in time and just pehh-ed through the presentation. keep getting distracted by the internet because it keeps disconncects and my msn too. left after lessons and went down with them and some 'people' actually farted in the lift and think it wont stink us to death, its so funny that i had to laugh and hold my breath till we reached the first level. tormenting. went to take the mrt praying that i wont meet the big boy who threwed paper ball at me the previous time. thankfully he's nowhere in sight. trained to novena and i almost missed my stop cos i fell aslp. reached tooo early so i shopped around before going to revenue house. there is so many strangers ok, ranges from 16plus to 50plus. these people are so not very friendly, they just sat there with this stern look on their faces, luckily theres this friendly who smiled to me that made me feel more away from the tensed atmosphere. the whole briefing is about writing journals on my breakfast, and my girls will see me bringing this thick sheet of papers down to break from tomorrow onwards. they will sure to ''shoot'' me agn. it lasted for an hour or so and i left, trained backed to Sk , and here comes the most disgusting irritating and gross part. The train is filled with people and so i was sandwiched inbetween an uncle and behind theres some aunties, this fucking pervertic uncle took out his phone and played this porn video, showing to my direction and initially i wasnt aware it was porno but soon enough when i realised it was i was damn afraid and i looked around frantically, that bloody uncle still adjusted his pants and all, omg, i have no where to walk too as its damn packed. after that he also alighted at Sk, to prevent getting up the escalator with him behind me, i quickly rushed to the front, ended up knocking hard into the edge of the metal chairs causing a loud bang but i pretended it was not pain as there's like 50 over passengers looking at me due to the bang. when i finally reached the bus stop, i looked down and the next thing i knew, the skin on my leg has teared and was bleeding. gosh. i am unlucky. very unlucky. school tmr, looking forward to see my girls and classmates, they make my day in school. sometimes i really hoped things didnt turn out this way, how i missed the past but its never gonna be the same again. missed the time when we meet really often even though you were schooling, chatted everynight even when we were both schooling the next day. the times when i was naughty yet you wouldnt walk away from me. when you placed me infront of everything and anything, when you messaged my friend just to ensure i was fine and well taken care of, when everything falls on me and yet you were there for me. thou we quarreled everynight , but love still overcomes all. days when you'll never hesitate to hold me back. never. now i guessed i couldnt say much because you'll feel i am being attitude, taking you for granted and only wants myself to be happy. in your eyes i've become such a person, i dont know why. i cant even say that i am not happy with you not spending enough time with me. i cant even be worried. i have to act as if it all doesnt even matter to me. and when i want to keep myself occupied, you'll say im always not at home dont like to go home always going out and all, but boy, schooling days im always home. i changed and i know i did. please stop saying ' see you never even change '. it makes me sad. i know i have my wrongs and unreasonableness, i admit and i will change. but if you always feel i will not, eventually you'll think i did not. then i feel its pointless even if we would to be tgth. still, i love you. okay, a very long wordy post, too much to say. end. lovess evee
