Thursday, December 27, 2007
us.
if fairytales exist, we would be happily ever after. i believe in that, what says you?
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christmas was spent sleeping the day away, she slept like a log and i think because she decided to be a logcake. hurrr hurrr.. nothing special though, we went for dinner and i ate till i cannot breath as the both of us ate up a meal for four! then, slack the day away till the day end.
however, it's the company that matters, isn't it? sooo it's concluded. WELL SPENT (:
-angel
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actually theres xueting, but she deleted her photo in my phone.
thursday was science. all about physics and i had no idea at all.
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Sunday, December 2, 2007
why must you make till hatred exist after a r/s ends?
i know, its your style. isnt it?
yes, you succeeded. i hate you now.
evee
well, maybe i have decided.
i have no idea what i want anymore.
her last message was
that im of no importance to her.
okay. what made her feel that way.
maybe its just the way i am.
I THINK I FUCKING PUSHED HER AWAY.
I think its just the way i behave.
seriously, if it didnt matter.
if i wouldnt feel the hurt and pain that she has caused.
fuck.
i made her cry.
i made her hurt.
i wouldnt know.
how i know?
the only source.
Her blog.
the last post of hers?
Dreaming through the night with a broken heart.
its all bad...
Really bad...
i dont know if it is a good thing or a bad one.
she is heartbroken, disappointed.
she cried.
the smell was too strong i guess, this time i couldnt hide away
we talked for very long, but im glad she understands.
i admit everything to her, i told her this is not the first time.
she even give me more time. 20 more days.
by 2008, i'll quit.
this is what you made me promised you. and i will.
i love you and i am sorry mummy.
when i talked to her in her room again, she asked if there's anything else i'll like to tell her.
i was hesitating whether i should tell her about the art or not.
eventually i decided to tell her. she was all calm about it, and even asked me to put more lotion.
aftermath, daddy and sister came in, i decided to tell them all.
daddy nagged a little, but all was okay.
i felt really comfortable now, knowing i need not have to hide anything.
and threatens all away. =D
and bbf, its not your fault. its mine.
thanks the crazies for your consoles, seeing you guys after school today. rmb my ice cream.
weekends was all about late nights and chilling.
friday in school was fun becos it TGIF, had talks, gossips and many bondings with the usuals in class.
initially wanted to steamboat at the hostel with them but i had mahjiong session in the night, so decided to push to another day.
homed, bathed and napped awhile before heading out to meet the rest.
mahjiong , mac , sleepover (cos daddy called to say its too late and i should not go home.) and woke up at only 3plus. the night was disturbed by loud snores and handphones ringing.
headed home to bathe and out again, its a saturday and there should be some saturday night fever. Thus, night of barcardi,gambling and inking all over the body,getting myself all high.
homed at ard 3 and slept till the next day before going to interview with bbf, cabbed here and there and i actually ran for a taxi. fucking throw face, cos i thought i left my hp in the cab.
headed to lor ah soo for paopao's training and chilled at the coffeeshop till 10.30 before heading home.
school now, super holidays in 4 more days. i love. =D yes, still my love, never change.dont accuse me when you dont know how my heart feels.ok?evee
Seem like everyone is going thru tough times. Let's just hope that Santa will do something special this christmas. Anyway, out of our sorrows and pain, i finally have got something positive that i could brat. Hahahs... i went to catch Mr Magorium's premiere! it was just yesterday when i told Scaved that i wanna catch it & here comes my uncle ringing telling me he've got the VIP seats but he's not free to go for it. And so i am, with my mum. It was fantastic. There were tables of food, fried stuff especially. Made me go so yaya all over, globbing down tons of fried potatoes. Quite a couple of celebrities there too. well... who cares. Let's move on to the movie. It was free seating, so i went early in for a nice seat. Goody bags entitled on every seat=) Hahahs... okay i noe, im a cheapo.
Let me show you a pic of me with Dustin Hoffman& Natalie Portman.
Okay, coming to the rating of the show. Well... i would just encourage you guys to go on weekdays. Because it is not worth the weekends price. And its freaking one and a half hrs. The lights out there at Orchard are Beau-ti-ful. So make a stroll down if uve got nothing much during the holidays. im praying for Santa to Merry Me!- Val
hey guys. im sorry i hadnt been updating much.
>.< been thru a really rough patch.
lets see, im a fucking bad person. seriously i nv felt so before...
well, to be contacting your "bro's" ger and having a relationship that has no frens and lovers bounderes in it is kinda like crap.
well, lets see. she doesnt wana hurt him.
i dun wan to hurt him.
he loves her.
she loves me.
i _____ her.?
well, i too confused to sort out my emotions.
everytime i can just feel it that shes keeping smthing from me.
she says its not that she doesnt want to say. its just that she cant.
the endless confusion. the pain. the sleepless nights. the constant thoughts of her.
I guess i had it real bad.
nope, i have no idea what love is.
never been loved.
no idea how to love.
i dun blame my family for the person i became.
i dun blame my dad for the me.
because i knew, he has been thru much worse then me.
this is what she posted on her blog....
i just heard my heart shattered and a whisper told me yours broke too.theres the conflict thing;somethings very disturbing.and then theres this long pain.another stab;that long pierced pain that i thought wouldnt come back so soon.i thought this was supposed to be happy;i fell sick too soon. and its fast, that.sorry i couldnt hold oni didnt believe now that its admitted and gone,its all screwed isnt it only voiceless screaming.):the head hurts;no im not drunk. that hand held and one hug. you didnt tell me please dont say its the last. the pain of the head and the heart couldnt be differentiated anymore.ow.
i dun wana cause her anymore hurt. but the more i distance.
she got hurt even more.
is this even going anywhere?
the endless hurt and pain. the piercing pain in the heart.
the bruised hands and knuckles.
WTF AM I DOING...
its too much too bear.
im sry i had to mask it all.
i closed my door.
you closed yours.
i just wana walk away.
its painful.
but i will stil try.
the last thing i would ever say is that I LOVE YOU.
Words were nailed to my heart.
i am seriously affected.
i guess everyone knows what had happened
& on top of that, something more.
something more crude.
i have no idea why they have to do that.
is my life really that interesting?
& i wonder why at that point of time when crude words was towards my direction like an arrow, i wasnt able to voice out. i was in a utter lost of words, falling under the state of confusion.
Powerless was the word to use. It was my very first time that im in lost of words.
So unlike me, isnt it?
Angel said i dun belong to that world
well she's right.
Tears flowed to the brim of my eyes, but i fought it back.
i dun wanna look defenseless
i dun wanna look defeated.
IT makes me puke when IT acts like a sheep among the herd.
i dun blame them for being immature
for they are the every reason girls turned away.
- watch it before i strike-
watch your back when you hear my name
VALERIE
let me share with you guys, which i find it kinda amusing.
last night, after some consideration, i decide to pack my bag, grab my laptop and shooo.. off to zouk.
(who in the hell bring a laptop to zouk?!)
anyway, that is not to implied im dumb or what?! because im not there for clubbin. then, here comes the amusing part.
after much waiting, you finally called. so i went in to zouk wanting to look for her.
-oks, this is the FIRST TIME i went to zouk.
sooo, im like sooo lost, not knowing which side is to zouk and which side to phuture. which entry to go in and whatsoever. sooo i walked from this entrance to that and back, asking for help. like a total noob.
FINALLY, i got in. -one step nearer to YOU.
then, im supposed to get stamped before i can reli entered zouk.
i stand at the counter.
-the staff who in charge of the stamping stares at me and i stared back at her, feeling all lost again. meanwhile, people just keep walkin in and she stamped all of them but not me, other than staring at me.
im like, huh? y? what am i supposed do to get the stamp done, im i supposed to pay or what?! but it's LADIES night what?!
then i observed, while we continued with the staring-each-other-like-some-idiots. then, hurr hurr.. after like 10-15minutes, i realised they were saying something to her before getting their stamped. then, FINALLY!!! i caught what this guy say, he jus merely tell her "ZOUK". sooo he got stamped like any other people and got in.
then i learned and goes "ZOUK".
finally.! i got stamped and got in. for this one time, im sooo proud of myself going to clubs.
smile
-angel.
been sleeping late many nights,and i dont know why.
i think time flies.
one more week and its my super holidays.
theres one thing im worrying about now, thats my grade for sem 2,
its very bad, and i think i'll have to retake some modules.
ya, i always allow my emotions to affect me.
fuck.
okay, went to the survey discussion that day, many pastries and stuff to eat, but was shy so i didnt eat it. anyways, i think i made a stupid introduction of myself, it was too sudden and i just crap.
' hi, im evelyn from rp, and i love mahjiong. '. whatever.
discussion was pretty fun, and i was assigned to seat between two really outgoing guys, they had so much to say and their english was deep.
left after 2 hours and a guy from the discussion actually waited for me just to talk to me about mahjiong. he asked if we should exchange contact, so i replied, ' msn ke yi ma? '. i feel super retarded after saying. homed after that, didnt meet up with them but went to bbf's hse instead. ate, chatted and got a ride home. thanks.
oh ya, i wrote the appeal letter for cheong to continue his stay at the hostel in RP, and guess what, its approved! he owe me la teh. :D
weekends coming. activities activities.
i want to watch enchanted,
i want to go to the train track,
i want to go mount faber,
i want to see stars,
i want to seat by the sea,
i want to tan again,
i want to paint my room,
i want to learn poledancing,
i want another art
i want i want.
evee
Your real enemy is someone who knows you.
And the better they know you,
the closer they are to you,
the greater is their capacity to do your harm.
The person who shares a part of your life,
who lives with you & knows all your habits
and has a keen insight into what you value most in all the world
- This is the person to fear
when LO and VE doesnt make LOVE
-VaL
my mood is up and down
not stable, not good.
thou the past week has been crazy for me.
totally got myself wasted, late nights, knocked out, psychoness and self inflicted hurt.
hello. time to wake up and back to school, back to a homegirl and back to the fact, the reality.
hopefully, i'll stop running away from sch and home.
anyway, i shouldnt be selfish to still put his photos at my friendster, he's no longer mine & since he alrdy deleted his acct, i guess it means thrs no turning back for us.
might be going to malaysia with my crazy classmates to stayover. should i?
anyway, many friends had gone overseas, come back soonnn.
and thanks to many ppl who had been making me smile.
was hard to sleep last night, thank goodness someone lovely called to chat, its been sometime since we have TWOgether time. love you bbf.
i didnt change, i just want to run away.
happy oneweek to my art. :) so retarded. i know.
evee
its Dec and nothing seem to get better.
Accompanied long long name for interview at some place called the wine connection on fri. it was pot luck day. i didnt noe whether i missed it cos there weren't any sign at all.
Well... apart from that, she didnt get the job she interviewed but got the one at changi instead. i didnt want to voice out to her that i dun like it. i dun wanna voice out to her that its bcos the person who is posting the most threat to me is working there as well. i dun wanna sound like some petty wife worrying over those stupid issues.
And there she goes, started her first day on sat & im all alone from then.
WE came out with some dumb ideas. BOTH coming out a love questionaire for each other.
WE BOTH exchanged the question papers at the same time. but it appeared that the answers turned out to be so much different. yes, i am sad. yes, i am disappointed.
i can't denied that i love to compare, but all gals do, don't they?
i posted a question such as which is nicer?
ive got answers like green is unique, red is nice.
Maybe Angel is right. im a dumb dumb comparing & worrying over silly stuffs that i shouldn't.
i duno why. but i simply love to ask about history. but the more i know, the more i hate. i tink its time to slap my mouth when i have the courage to do it. its an urge which i tink only evee understands.
im just a normal girl afterall, VaL
i realised i haven been participating scaved for outside-school activity. so i tink its my time to do my part. i shall plan for our little christmas party. Let's all count down, shall we?