Monday, January 28, 2008
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Thursday, January 3, 2008
6months ain't that SHORT after all.
angel.
roars.
this is what happen :
he could 've told us what we need to do and talk nicely instead of askin' us to follow him like iDiot than told us out of a suDden that we need to re.enter again ... *super.anger!*
it make me think twice.thrice and fries gOin' to JB again, dun wish to see those irritatin' . ruDe jerks spoilin' singapore's image thinkin' that their somebOdy when they 'Re not.
felt so tireD so i deciDed tO skip schl tOghther with birDy on thur. went to fei.fei's house and eventually i got lost takin' bus there so i took a caB down instead! ! ! stupiD.girl! weekend was fun for me as i get to riDe his bike .. ever since i've passeD , its been 1mnth before i got a bike to riDe .. it was quite fun riDin' aRound! ((: friday, went back home early, than went round riDin' with aHkiang. : riDin' yangzai. and alex alongin' tO queesway fOllow by westmall to meet jiajun and slurpee ! ! ! ((:
tOday! i riDe tO schl with aHkiang! fiRst time dOin' that and it was quite okie as the jOurney was safe ((: schl's suCk and i hate this stupid faCi. , she suCk big time ... hmMmmm ... can't wait for schl to end cOs' i get to meet my "kentang" again !!!
what have i done...
im back to my old self the one i thought i left behind.
they say:
The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past;
you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
[i cant fucking do that.]
i need to try to remember how it felt like..
Happiness.
1. Characterized by good luck; fortunate.
2. Enjoying, showing, or marked by pleasure, satisfaction, or joy.
3. Being especially well-adapted; felicitous
4. Cheerful
and some stuff that i have never felt:
loved.
1. To have a deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward (a person): We love our parents. I love my friends.
2. To have a feeling of intense desire and attraction toward (a person).
3. To have an intense emotional attachment to: loves his house.
4. a. To embrace or caress.
b. To have sexual intercourse with.
5. To like or desire enthusiastically.
6. Theology To have charity for.
7. To thrive on; need.
why do my parents hate me so much.
why...
[maybe i just need time to be alone, i told her im never gona meet her when she wanted to see me. we are just paining each other. i have fucking commitment problems. and i fucking dont need anyone.. ]
because one learns her lesson when there was no one to trust before that and hope was lost. hoping leads to dissappointments, misplacement of trust leads to just another wound. i dun need another wound. hate me. i need you to hate me to leave me. i rather kill myself then hurt you.
Christ Jaden [my last post]
I actually have fun doing ppt..
geezz how boring is that.
i swear im gona get fat soon.
brownies and icecream everyday + spicy wedges!!
lets see, im sick of medi. every morning wake up gotta swallow 5 different type of them.
gross shit. nv fail to spoil my day...
so i went to do this quiz that my fren was doing....The Dating Persona Test!!~
And i am...
The Wild Rose
Random Brutal Love Dreamer (RBLD) Colorful, but unpicked. You are The Wild Rose.Prone to bouts of cynicism, sarcasm, and thorns, you excite a certain kind of man. Hoping to gather you up, he flirts and winks and asks you out, ultimately professing his love. Then you make him bleed. Why? Because you're the rare, independent, self-sufficient kind of woman who does want love, but not from a weakling.You don't seem to take yourself too seriously, and that's refreshing. You aren't uptight; you don't over-plan. Romance-wise, sex isn't a top priority--a true relationship would be preferable. For your age, you haven't had a lot of bonafide love experience, though, and this kind of gets to core of the issue. You're very selective.The problem is them, not you, right? You have lofty standards that few measure up to. You're out there all right, but not to be picked up by just anyone.
we were discussing about wrist slashing and pain inflicted today.YUP. WE. gawd. how sadistic and emo can we get? haha.
I have this feeling i want out again. i seriously dun like being attach.
Being attached = RESPONSIBILITIES.
zinc said:"dun flirt with vivi lah. later she jealous how?"
christ said:" but its only basic manners to flirt back what.. if she flirted and i never flirt back. she would be so paisei."
geezzz. im PEKCHEK ARH.
angel cummon. teach me how you do it.. haha.maturity? sensibility? BULLSHIT!! rawr.
- christ jaden
Anyway, I need to shop really badly, but doesnt matter i shall leave it to next week to do all the shoppings. Then i'll have more to spare.
Visited T3 on sunday with my guy and spent quite alot on candy empire and stuff,thanks to him. & Yes, T3 is big, more like a shopping mall rather than a terminal. Pretty interesting thou.
Skipped school on monday as i overslept and replenish my beauty sleep the whole day. In the evening, brought xuan xuan downstairs to the playground with sister, and even with the two of us around, it is damn hard to take care of her. Naughty and stubborn is all i can say.
Tuesday had UT, so had to attend school, lessons were fine, went for break at the coffeshop outside the school and decided not to eat, obviously, got scolded by "Birdy's" friends. Lessons ended early and homed, e35e's decided to change plan of going Langkawi to Genting and KL instead. Should i go? They alrdy accomodated to me by changing tour places, but got to spend quite alot if i go. Okay, Shall considerate.
i need a tan soooon , those people who promised to go sentosa with me , pls dont forget else i'll shave your hairs. :)
sometimes i'll still feel a little empty.
but life's life. thou i really miss the sweel ol days.
i love those who love me.
evee
okay. lets ignore what the doctor say.
he says no matter surgery or not its gona take at least 3 months for my hand to like heal.
so ohwell, LETS BBALL PPL!!
gawd. make victor buy waffle and coke for us all.
LUNCH ON HIM or smthing.
i really miss the W45Q days.
the mountain of snacks.
the endless chats.
from da ge, rong sounds like shes having a really tough time over there.
go there like skeleton le. come back.... "SCREAMS!!"
gawddddd.. please eat and NV NV NEVER. learn from Birdy kae.
we just keep telling her that shes only gona get fatter if she goes on skipping meals.
well. she wont listen LAH!
wait just wait like 2days and tada 1 MORE KG! (wahahhaaa!)
for you guys info. yup. im back with her.
it was a pretty funny thing.
to think she was actually jealous when her fren hit on me, when she told me she didnt care.
thats like. CUTE. haha.
geezz... and i have sexy voice and a great whole body muscle cramp! =]
cheeros~ gotta go cold turkey soon.
kicking all bad habits.
TRASH!
PS: rong~~ i bet you people watch alot over there. cummon shareshare! *GRINS*
with love - christ jaden
So what are you people waiting for?
come come come....
-VaL
As promised, ill drop a post because the blog skin was wonderfully renewed.
oh my... rong actually drop a comment. im so amazed. so curious how's it going over there.
Rem to take lotsa pics for us to see.
Don't forget to get nicey wisey presents for us, pretty gal!
Nothing much to update cause there were nothing special in my life. Other than my mum coming back to Spore with lotsa things for me, the rest are plain boring. I've been planning to skip my lesson one by one and have thus decided to keep it until the last week. Which means im not coming for the entire of the last week. Cool isnt it? i noe all of you mustbe jealous...
im seriously looking for a job. i dun wanna laze around and wait for my parents to feed me for the rest of 3months. sounds like a useless. My dad wans me to work in his shop, but i dont because i clearly noes that ill end up like a queen, eating KFC in front of the tv.
My dad says he wans to bring me oversea during Chinese New Year, but it hits on my TP date too. I dun wanna give up.
Anyway, Angel's TP date is 2days later. All the best Maggi. im waiting for the good news.
-VaL
tillalonglongtime.
butbballinghelpsmefeelahelllotbetter,
mondaygottagodoctorappointment.
soishallseeyouguysontuesday.
hopefullyhedunputmeinthecaseofaneroxic,
andifuckingdontneedasurgery...
lastly.
ihopeidiefromthiscoughsoon.
itskillingme. okaywaskidding.
haha.
I WANA FLY AWAY.
I WANA RUN AWAY.
life is a artwork that does not come with an eraser.
nothing can be undone can it?
i decided to distance after all.
i shall wait for my illness to kill me.
fuck the doctor. im sick of my life.
bec when death comes.
i will be standing there waiting for that with open arms.
-christ jaden
mentality and physically.
STOP THIS!!
yea. trying to gain weight.
so even when i dint feel like eating i have to eat.
lets see i have been puking everything out 2days straight.
shopping doesnt help, piano doesnt help.
so i did smoking and it just makes it worse.
nothing helps why...
♥ Choo ` - said:
i duno but i feel that its like u have given up hope on everything..
well, maybe i did.
im gona die sometime soon anyway.
stupid illness.
in fact i just want to die.
♥ Choo ` - said:
i duno what happen that caused u to give up hope on everything, but im sure those who care wont give up on u..
★ S A M ! ☆ - said:
emotionless dont be a coward biatch
think of the ppl around you
even if you nv noticed them
i really gave up on everything.
i duno why, its just maybe i changed.
i hate what shes doing to herself.
and why does she still have to do this?
but i hate myself more then i hate her.
HATEHATEHATE. it has been like that since young hadnt it.
i died. the dead cant rse again from the grave. so i quit trying.
SCREAMS!~
jaden
I'm the one who'll stay
And you know I'll be standing here still
I'll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I'm the one
Who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Believe in me
I will make you see
All the things that your heart needs to know
specially delicated to evee... ((:
//stay true, no matter what.
And some way, all the love can be saved. Whatever it takes, if you want, there'll be a way.
angel.
-roars.
but the next day, i really didnt have the mood to party.
and i so did not wana spoil the mood over there.
so i didnt went safra on sat.
instead i went shopping to ease my fustrations. but that didnt help.
so off i went to my fren's hse.
we drink and drink and
great i got fucking drunk.
the hangover today totally suck.
i have no idea why my hands are swollen.
why my leg hurt.
one thing i only remember was i cause lala's sprain of ankle.
msgs on hp shows that im saying stuff that i shouldnt be saying too.
someone just KILL ME. ARGH
christ
Yes, school reopens....
Though i seriously dread to come school but still im glad to see you gals again! it seems like it've been ages since we met. Hahahs... your laughters bring smile to my face=)
Okay okay, shall update what ive been doing this holiday.
Other than heading down to bbdc like mad everyday, the rest of the time was pretty well-spent. Quality time i would call it. *sweet sweet sweet*
Hahahs... i spolit all the plans which planned by her by being a Logcake on both christmas and count down. but still, i enjoyed both the special occasions.
We headed down to Mount Faber for dinner on Christmas night.
The place was awwwwwe-some.
and it was snowing=)
Oh oh oh... evee complained that we never wish a Happy new year so im doing it now.
Happy New Year everyone.
Hahahs.. look at evee's resolutions. i bet it'll still remain unchanged next new year.
My TP date is coming and so is Angel's.
She said she's gonna laugh at me if i do fail.
Well.. i will too. Make sure ill laugh till my teeth drops if she happens to be the same.
Bring it on, Maggi!
Yesh! Congrats Visi for getting her license! i have yet to ride in a bike yet. Maybe ill let Visi to be my first=)
Hahahas... im praying real hard that time flies. Cant wait to get out of this class. Oh yes, my dear friends, im looking for a job. i will stop being a Daddy's gal. And stop laughing at me cos i am going to learn to take bus other than MRT.
Ask what my new year resolution is: to get my directions right!
Alright alright shall see you girls on wed cos im not coming to school tml. Muhahas...
Tml is shopping whopping for me! and ive alr brainstorm the food for tml two days ahead.
Shall not be selfish and let me share.
im gonna have egg omelette, donuts, mars bar and chessy sausage with mashed potatoe for lunch! Not forgetting to have taro turnover while walking my way passed burger king.
Dinner dinner dinner.... and ramen for my dinner!
*Evee, stop drooling, i can see it from here.
Bye ladies
Happy schooling=)
-VaL
happy to see all my darlings again.
but i dislike waking up seven a.m in the morning and doing powerpoint in class.
as usual, class was crappy and decided to shoot on everything they can on me, so retarded.
break time met them and laughed my ass off again.
school is fun but study is sick.
ohya, looking forward to the 11th & 12th, so long since i went chalet.
should enjoy myself since my boyfriend always forgets me when he plays his game.
i need to catch up w/ you people & enjoyyy!
& im starting my diet, i swear. =D
suddenly feel like planning for my future already, seeing sanya getting along with her marriage and future plans so well, makes me envy in the meantime worried.
so i should start saving up and hopefully have a smooth sailing future.
anyway, my fk phone died on me again. suck.
but im taking it with my cousin, and shes a slow poke at planning her schedule
so i probably have to wait wait and wait..
oh btw guys.
my name is like christine jaden tjia min li, like officially.
after i get baptised and stuff so yea.
but rather is christ jaden seriously.[ mum just doesnt agree on that~]
holidays are like, yea.
pure wasting of my soul and life.
too many functions to go too.
too less time for myself.
and i freaking cant do sports or carry heavy stuff for a month.
so there goes the DB thingy that i have been waiting for. GEEZ.
to think a bandage hand look really nice~ so wrong about that.
its like, a NUISANCE seriously. gawddd. dumbdumb. hahh.
I think i lost tineey seriously.
bec christ was stupid to push tineey aside.
tineey was protecting christ like all the time.
im lost. christ is a weakling.
Jaden, learnt that dreams are meant only for sleeping.
i shouldnt have expected much more.
when we cant be together that hurt alot.
so when she broke away.
i tot i would be better.
but things have changed.
maybe we both have walls, too high for each other to climb.
the silence between us because we know too much.
the quarrels about all the stuff that we shouldnt talk abt. stuff we dun wana say.
too stubborn to admit.
the feeling is there, but it aint enough anymore.
why?
because theres no trust.
she says shes not good enough.
and its not the same anymore.
she couldnt stand the way i distance when we get too close.i cant seem to change.
comparisions to the past, thats what i couldnt take.
i decided to let go of her hand.
lets be friends instead.
*a nod of the head.*
will you leave me christ?
*shakes head.*
i made a promise to her.
a promise is what i do not break.
maybe after shes healed then i would walk away.
but for now. friends we shall be.
but we can never be friends the same way. can we?
just like the first day i met you and fell in love with ur smile.
im crushed.
TOTALLY.
my world is seriously falling in.
since when does my parents care abt me?
well recently.
when they suddenely decided to call up my sch and ask them abt my attendance and results and stuff.
i fucking wish they dont come back to singapore.
NOT LIKE IT WOULD MAKE MY LIFE ANY BETTER.
so yup,
no idea how they know mrs chong is module chair for DBA.
connections can rot. sometimes. well in this case it does.
AND FUCKING SHIT.
she wants to see my after sch to talk abt stuff.
great aint it..
i really feel like losing my memories all of a sudden.
and throw my life to someone who can fix it.
sick of it all.
really sick.