Finally, my dad agreed to let me go take license.
but im taking it with my cousin, and shes a slow poke at planning her schedule
so i probably have to wait wait and wait..

oh btw guys.
my name is like christine jaden tjia min li, like officially.
after i get baptised and stuff so yea.
but rather is christ jaden seriously.[ mum just doesnt agree on that~]

holidays are like, yea.
pure wasting of my soul and life.
too many functions to go too.
too less time for myself.

and i freaking cant do sports or carry heavy stuff for a month.
so there goes the DB thingy that i have been waiting for. GEEZ.
to think a bandage hand look really nice~ so wrong about that.
its like, a NUISANCE seriously. gawddd. dumbdumb. hahh.

I think i lost tineey seriously.
bec christ was stupid to push tineey aside.
tineey was protecting christ like all the time.
im lost. christ is a weakling.

Jaden, learnt that dreams are meant only for sleeping.
i shouldnt have expected much more.
when we cant be together that hurt alot.
so when she broke away.
i tot i would be better.

but things have changed.
maybe we both have walls, too high for each other to climb.
the silence between us because we know too much.
the quarrels about all the stuff that we shouldnt talk abt. stuff we dun wana say.
too stubborn to admit.
the feeling is there, but it aint enough anymore.

why?
because theres no trust.
she says shes not good enough.
and its not the same anymore.
she couldnt stand the way i distance when we get too close.i cant seem to change.
comparisions to the past, thats what i couldnt take.


i decided to let go of her hand.
lets be friends instead.
*a nod of the head.*
will you leave me christ?
*shakes head.*
i made a promise to her.
a promise is what i do not break.
maybe after shes healed then i would walk away.
but for now. friends we shall be.
but we can never be friends the same way. can we?
just like the first day i met you and fell in love with ur smile.


im crushed.

TOTALLY.


my world is seriously falling in.
since when does my parents care abt me?
well recently.
when they suddenely decided to call up my sch and ask them abt my attendance and results and stuff.
i fucking wish they dont come back to singapore.
NOT LIKE IT WOULD MAKE MY LIFE ANY BETTER.
so yup,
no idea how they know mrs chong is module chair for DBA.
connections can rot. sometimes. well in this case it does.
AND FUCKING SHIT.
she wants to see my after sch to talk abt stuff.
great aint it..
i really feel like losing my memories all of a sudden.
and throw my life to someone who can fix it.

sick of it all.
really sick.