The Unspoken Fairytales.

Monday, December 15, 2008

sang some song, won a $100 voucher
gave it to my mum as one of her birthday gifts
wanted to bring everyone out to eat,
some complained heavy rain, some complained friends coming, some complained not involved
totally not appreciative
like shit

val

Speak the Unspoken 1:23 AM

Thursday, December 11, 2008

they say, fairytales only exist in movies, storybooks, drama.

time waits for no man, no man waits forever.

when i was young, i remember watching all the different drama serial about "love-relationships". it's always about how A love B but B love C and A would wait for B, as she is all that he desire and he believe that she is the only one for him. so, with that love in him, he really waited for years and years for B, in hope for her to return back to his side. and so, it's FAIRYTALES, it always turn out to be a happy ending, a ending that all of us would have expected, B would return to A's side and they live happily ever after.

people say, "maybe this is the reason why we watched movies, shows, etc.. because all this would never happen in reality! we need to live in self-denial at time like such, this is only when life can be balanced and we can smile for what we might not be able to experience."

but tonight, as i looked into the mirror, i saw A.

love me, angel.

Speak the Unspoken 6:42 PM

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

thanku khaifad for makin' me feel better and to wake me up ! ! !

its time for me to realli wake up and stand tall .. ... no use and no point cryin' when others are enjoyin' and partyin' away in life !!!

i would 've to admit that things/life had realli been tough for me and everythin' seem to suck so bad no matter how hard u try to make it fun. there isn't anythin' tt i can look forward too, just waitin' for things to happen so it would help kill my time. to me e time is bearly moving at all and it seems like it was just yesterday where everything happened!

* in short : ifeel very very very farked-up and moodless!

really never expect that a person could change over night and it would be e last thing which 'll ever cross my mind thinkin' that things will happen this way. *

talkin' to khaifad realli changed my mind and realli made me feel so much better, after all he knows him best!

sick for 3days, down with fever! as usual, larger than live and im still alive fightin' for fresh air with many others. i need a BREAK! like damn good BREAK!, feelin' super sick and tired of everythin' + life. .... so yah!

shall start a party animal kinda of life (: and it a super big and cool one ...
like more than words !!!

P.S: shovis. ng shiying.

,xOxO

Speak the Unspoken 1:59 PM

Friday, December 5, 2008

Let's stop all these emo post and all start afresh!
Let's plan about food hunt
Let's plan about about fun!

Let's get fat together!
Fatty fatty bom bom, today cannot go home!

Angel, Shovis GO GO GO!

check out this song angel- LOBO STONY

Love val

Speak the Unspoken 8:48 AM

when the whole world is snoring, i wonder why am i here? i'm supposed to sleep.

day 1 have past and i still have a thousand, million days to go. and tonight i might just shout in my dreams "attacked!" but not because i am attacking food but towards my new resolution.

GO GO GO !!!!

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind

I won’t live to see another day
I swear its true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You’re impossible to find

i would stand up tall ((:

-angel
you have disowned me because i had became an elephant. ((:

Speak the Unspoken 2:27 AM

Thursday, December 4, 2008

going back to the corner where I first saw you,
gona camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gona move, got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
saying if you see this boy can you tell her where I am,
some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not...broke I'm just a broken hearted girl,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
how can I move on when I'm still in love with you ...

its has come to e end of our time .. ...
im better off own my own ...

the first photo that we took together,
"your my pertama dan utama!"

and the very last photo ... ...

Dear God the only thing I ask of you,
is to hold him when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
we all need that person who can be true to you
but I left him when I found him
and now I wish I'd stayed
cause I'm lonely and I'm tired I'm missing you again ... again ...

every story has its own endin' ...
and mine, a story which every girl had dreamt for ... a BEAUTIFUL story
but with a painful endin' (that nobody wishes for) ... ...
live your life!
sinOys. <3
PS: xOxo,

Speak the Unspoken 11:03 AM

the most miserable thing in life, is not knowing how to feel but to know that your not feeling it when your so sure that you ain't alright.

"it's like a knife snap right through your heart but you are not feeling the pain at all. you see that it is bleeding, you know that it should hurt but why are you not feeling it at all?! or rather, you just do not know how to feel it anymore. it is stuck there for you just have to wait for emotions to flow all over again. there is no way for you to pull it out neither can you push it in for you can feel the pain."

is this what you call "numb?"

i cant help thinking of how a comfort level a couple can established, and might establish this level of comfort only in this relationship and not any other one.

and as the song play...
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides
despite how much she wanna hold you till she die. she know it's never possible anymore, for your gone forever.she is left all alone, breaking down and cry. she can no longer hold you till the fear in her subsides but can only hold you till the feeling in her subsides.

angel,
love me.

Speak the Unspoken 1:30 AM

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

As promised, im gonna update on my every updates.
So on tuesday, i suppose to meet Angel for lunch but i overslept.
Hahahs.. so a new X joined the family.

The next day awaits a Wednesday.
When everyone is pigging at home,
Hi, im in school.
Thats the reason why im here.

I cant talk much about the unhappen, so im gonna share about my tues.
I woke at 915 with Angel's text.
and decided to head back into dreams.
In my dreams, i dreamt that i have 3 lobsters and they all turned into mudskippers.
Couldnt rem anything much,
but the person sleeping next to me said i shouted
"ATTACKED" in my dreams.

Had my breakfast at 130pm
Went to my dad's shop and had lunch at 230pm
Bought a watch for long long name's mum becuase both our mums birthday falls on the same day
Head for the gym because my mum is on serious diet

Not forgetting i just cut my hair.

And now i look like this

- Ah Dai

Love val

Speak the Unspoken 11:10 AM

Monday, December 1, 2008

Wao! im happy to see recent new post again.
Yes, let's shall blog about every single events that happen in our lives.
That's every single incident that builts what we are isnt it?
So of course i would make sure you're part of my growing up.
So let's get started !!!
And i cant wait to say, Holidays are nearing!

Love val.

Speak the Unspoken 8:37 AM